The number 10 is a significant number in my life. Cos it marks the years that I have served God after backsliding and returning to him - cell ministry. It also marks the number of years that I have worked in MEWR and then transferred to NEA. 3 July 2008 is the day where I officially tendered and 1 August 2008 will be the day where I will leave this familiar place to go to another new place that God has chosen and strategically positioned me in.It has been 1 and 1/2 years since I started seeking God for my career direction. In the start of the year 2007 while I was doing my reflection in Sentosa, Silosa beach then, I remembered the time to be 11:30am. God gave me this word - "Have Patience and Wait, Surrender and Obey me". He brought me to a passage where Abraham was promised a son in his old age. God reminded me not to be another Sarah who took matters in her own hands and caused much trouble cos she didn't really dare trust God based on the uncertain circumstances she saw and was in.
There at Sentosa, I made a committment and wrote it down in my journal to trust God and have patience to wait, to learn to surrender and obey him ... It was a struggle having to submit my plans to him cos I really wanted to a career in IT but God just closed all doors for me, he didn't even want to leave a window open for me ... He impressed upon my heart to go into the area of accounts. I resisted and wrestled with him for 1 year before I finally told God :"Fine, if that is where you want me to go, please open a door for me"
And God not only open the door, he opened all the windows too. I began having many opportunities to go for interviews. However there were trying moments where I still doubted and struggled with God. But he is faithful and has never let me down. He brought people to pray and encourage me - esp my dear cell frens =) and he brought me much encouragement as I spend time with him.
Then I had an opening in NEA where I thought God may want me to be. Yet at the same time, I also had a chance opportunity to go for another interview. I then asked God :"Lord, please be very clear and certain to show me where you want me to go - Either I will stay in NEA or I will go out of NEA and move clearly to the place that you have chosen and prepared for me. Lord, you will direct me and give me a clear answer and peace - and I will know that it is you. And also the renumeration, location and all the other conditions will be in my favour"
After 2 weeks, I received an offer from the company. Initially, I thought there was no more hope cos they said they will get back to me in a week. But when I receive the call, I was quite shocked. Why? God has blessed and given me more than I have expected - The renumeration, location and all the conditions were all in my favour.
Another reason why I was shocked was after a period of continous seeking and praying for 1 and 1/2 years, God has finally revealed his plans for me.
Instantly, I felt the peace and sense God saying "Go child, this is the one" I spoke to my mum, dad, sister and xinyi too. They know me well and they knew that i was really at peace. They all gave me thumbs up. However I was still a little hesistant even though I said yes.
But God knew me and is always patient and faithful. He knew that if I don't receive a clear confirmation, I will always be wondering. So the next morning, I received the notification from NEA through an email that I was not selected for the position I initally applied for. Then I felt God saying - " Now, do u trust me that I have given you a clear answer?"
I thanked God for all he has done and was really bubbling with joy. My colleagues could see that I was really happy but they didn't know why. My closer friends at work were also very happy for me. I know the answer because God has shown me the direction he wants me to go. He has planned my future many years ago and now he has revealed it to me.
I can never thank God enough. Indeed the 1 and 1/2 years of pressing on in prayer though I struggled a lot and was trying my best to be as patient and obedient for his will for my life. The assurance he gave me through (Psm 37:4 and Jer 29:11) brought me great comfort. These are the 2 verses that have been my assurance since serving in cell ministry and me going out into the market place.
(Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart - Psm 37:4)
(For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future - Jer 29: 11)
11 August 2008 marks a new journey for me in my career path. It is going to be a truly exciting time for me. And I am gonna continue trusting God to lead and guide me and show me more of his plans. To also commit my career and other aspects of my life to him =)
Dear Abba Father, I can never praise or thank you enough.
Thank you Abba Father =)
